Therapy Cleaning

Warning--I have reached sappy in this blog......

Lord knows I needed a therapy clean day. It has been an emotional 24 hours, and I just needed to take some time to myself today and clean. I know for many of you this would not be your idea of therapy, but it is for me. I get in there and start cleaning and it takes my mind to a more calm place. A place where I can see the big picture. It stops me from going into the pity mode, which is always a good thing.

Today I just needed to get lost in a project, and there is nothing better than using the vacuum cleaner to drown your thoughts. Now my house was in need of a good sweeping for sure. I was deep into the therapy today. I was moving furniture to clean underneath. I even cleaned out the cabinets in the kitchen. You know the type of cabinets that are up in the corners, where you tend to store "stuff". I am not sure I have cleaned those corners since we moved in. I had pots and pans that have not seen the light of day in years, a coffee maker that I am sure did not work, a few cookie sheets that were all beat up, other appliances that were rather dated, and old--and we have already replace. I filled up 4 trash bags full of this stuff to put on the side of the road!! It felt really good to purge. I then moved onto the rest of the house. Somehow when I get busy in these "cleaning" project, I am able to focus on what is good and what is important to me. To reflect on the here and now. So now my house is really clean, as Aubrey said I did my spring cleaning today.

So after a full day of therapy--I gotta say I do feel a bit better. I am not all happy happy joy joy yet, but I will get there without a doubt.

Oh, you say you wanted to know why I am in need of such deep therapy today?? Well, without getting into "detail", let's just say that the path that we thought God was taking us down hit a dead end, and hard I might add. So that makes me wonder, were we (and I say we, because Steve and I are a team, right?!?), so were we on the right path? Had we misread this great opportunity to be not the right thing? Apparently!!! God made that very clear that this was not His plan. Ha, don't you know God must get tired of hitting us in the face to get us back where we belong!!! So life is going to be good. There are plenty of other doors out there, we just aren't sure which one will open. So the story continues--right?

I gotta say--THANK GOD FOR GOOD FRIENDS!!! There is nothing better than getting with some of your best friends and shooting the breeze and eating some good grub. Could you ever imagine life without a true friend?? Through the years I have learned what it takes to be a true friend, and to know who your true friends are. During my "therapy" I got to thinking about friends. Thinking about the many friends through the years that have been there through all the many milestones in ones life. To say the least, I am very grateful for my friends.

Ok, so now I have to go a little sappy, and I keep trying to not say this, but it is pressing on my heartstrings, so I think I will get this out there, and then be done!!! Rebuilding a relationship with a friend can sometimes be hard, awkward, unnerving, all those things that make you nervous every time you are around. Making sure you are saying the right thing, so not to go back to that dark place you once were, and so on. I have been given the chance to rebuild a friendship of late that has been so God sent. Never in a million trillion years did I ever think I would be given the chance again--and then one day the door flew open and a world of opportunities came flying in. I have realized how much I needed her (them) and how much I have missed and vice verse. As my hubby likes to say "We were on a break". Not once have I been afraid that we will ever go back there, because the bond that has binded now, has binded with cement glue!!! God is so good to give you back the people you love!! So for anyone still reading this mess--NEVER take for granted a true friend!! Sometimes there are issues, and sometimes we get mean, but in the end--the love is always there. When you can be a part for 6 years and come together again and basically pick up where you left off (just in a much more mature fashion) and never stop a beat--you know that we you have can never be measured!!

So thanks K--You will never know how thankful I am for you!!!!! (I am even thankful for your hubby too...hehe)

Ok, so the sappiness is over. I just had to get that off my chest and post it I guess. Ok self, can I move on now?? So today was a gloomy one. Lots of good therapy came out of it, and I am looking forward to a bright and sunny day tomorrow!!!

So good night all and may you all have sweet dreams!!!